I feel weird..confuse with what i do...

• i dunno what kind of feeling is this...i may not give you a proper answer....but could you just make me happy....for this past few week...i being stupid and just write all about my stupid feeling....it just becaming very irritating,.....
• I wonder....what did you think of me..I just felt so dumb.....is just if you didnt care about me....i will feel sad
• even if you are using me....i dunno...i will be fine..and kinda happy cause you will think of me...when you use me...(i dunno you are using me or not..)
• but...after that...i also just feel sad..cause you just use me...for the purpose your happiness.....
• and this make me feel kinda painful...and heart broken....
• to say the true...i may not just answer you properly...and i don't dare to decline....
• Decline..i will feel painful after you ask me why....are you ok?why you want to decline....
• Accept...i look at you...i just being hard and uncomfortable and being sad...
• i have no idea what i can do...i have no choice...
• please....god...can you give me a hint...and just help me..or make me change....i don't want to continue like this....just no....please

hope everything just can change......

• I just wanna be with you

Melody bring me and flow me away....

• i dunno what am i suppose to do....
• A Melody could just calm me down....a music can bring me to any kind of emotion
• so i have no idea.....what kind of thinking i should be...hey..u being so caring to me..since i talk to you....it make feel so comfortable....
• but when you didnt talk to me...i just felt cold....and feel sad.....
• well....i hope my voice can become a melody to you..
• to comfort you...
• to make you happy
• to stay with you
• be in your mind...forever....
• well now....
• melody....the voice of yours...have confuse me,....have make me...crazy......
• so.....you have bring me away...and be a person which is not myself anymore....
• you change me everything.....you make me feel diference and make me feel something special and i can feel the feeling of being down...compare to last time.......
• i wish this thing make me be much more happier...i dont want to be down..

A girl : Coddy a!! wake up la.
pls laa. like dat only also wa
dun lanlanyeh sinn no mood.
CONTROL URSELF laa. always wan me call you wake up...when you will wont get scolded from me...

• haha...thx...for always awaken me....

Piano Tune

• A Piano...could just bring you to somewhere...for some girl...they felt kinda romantic when a guy just played it for them....and mostly...all girls they just love to play piano...
• the does not love the way how people play...but the love the sound of the instrument..it just attract them....
• and so today....with all about music....and mostly about piano...
• this instrument bring me all kind of memory...and i dunno is actually a good..thing...
• Once the song is play...let me flash back my memory....
• So....den....i try to give him some space....and so....i'll out from my house.....in this moment.....i when to my fav place....where i cry,sad,happy i would like to that place.....which nearby my house area.....what i can tell the hint "where a lot of people love to go there when is nothing to do and it's windy....."
• so.....i bring my mum photo with me....cause i love to have my mum beside me...
• so....everything wish just over soon....as my friend said...please do overcome it and don't let people control you....

There's No Place Like Us

• i have no idea....the only place could not get away....is only my room...
• my room is my world....
• there is a place full of memory.....
• there place i cried..
• the place i laugh
• the place i studied
• the place i eat.....
• the place i watch movie....
• the place i listen to music...
• the place i meet all my friend
• the place i sleep....

and

• the place where a lot of people have couple up...so far it's about 4 couple up in my room
• but how come i don't have?
• i just no idea......the moment i see you....my heart have broken...for being so sweet and romantic.....
• i have no idea....as in speechless...mum...i need you...to let me stay strong....well if you are here....i can stay calm and wont feel lonely.....mum i miss you..=)
• i will recognize all my distance....and the hope and wishes will just come true with no idea....
• can i have some rewards...
• why did u betray me?why...?why...?....i cant believe you treat me like that....i will remember.....
• as long you doesn't betray me is enough.....plss dont....if she betray me...is fine...but you...please don't......I miss You....the moment of our days....(non-betrayer)

"NO MUSIC NO LIFE"

• haih....hey...how are you feeling today?
• i'm kinda worried once i see you like that....please...you....are always in me...even know i forget you...but once i see those feeling just back into me..haha...totally no idea...
• but i see you can be so happy..of course i will be happy for u....and hey remember dont force and make yourself being so struggling and suffering...Gambateh...
• well....after i have a chat with my TWINS haha.....both of us plan to study togetther to get the cert and of course do not least out is....we are planning to learn some basic instrument wand to open a band....haha....
• in this band...we are planning to make a charity band which is....everyweek go to orphanage to play some music for them..as in we have learn something

" NO MUSIC NO LIFE "

• haha...gogo all of us....a plenty of fun stuff is awaiting us...to be done and our ambition and wishes is waiting for us to touch and catch them...so it will dream come true.....
• so what we are waiting now?...just keep on study and till after SPM we have all the fun...haha gogo....
• both of us are like so excited and cant wait for the exam faster over ...
• Go Go Music =)

Thx for the Support..(moral value XP)

• haha...thank for evryone who have give me a spirit of energy to let me stand up...
• now...First of all, the first thing i would not ever give something like bring me...down..
• remember people the moment you just got hurt remember to just stay calm...do not come and over take those action yo....and everything will just be overcome...i am kinda sure...it do or will be paid back....in a good or proper way....
• well just remain the stay....
• to think about it or think back....we will know..the reason we are here..is just not for you....
• but in this reason...it doesn't meant i will not let you down......
• remember once you just come i will try to change you into a proper and good person...
• i may not comform..that i will make it and i'm a 100% good person but...i will try my best to be one...so let do it people..without any knowledge just learn to say sorry...

Missing A Part of Myself

• Once you have away...from me....i really just miss you....
• everytime...every moment i do every work....i just very miss you.....
• but why? I Could just said that...it without reason and is just with all of sudden the feeling just came....
• well....in the other way....your careness..your playfulness...your sweetness...your laughness....you sadness...your memory and worried...it just always be with me....but i just felt that...i have to share with the others....
• cant it always be with me?....can i just be selfish once.....can i? Pls? pretty pls?
• i really wish...just one day....you will be back with me...no matter how long.....
• i will just describe with one...word..."wait"....i will be waiting no matter how long..even the day i be a corpse...and been sealed...in a box....that will not be released...i will be just wait....with no reason....
• it may have no result...but in the use...i could just pretend nothing happen....
• in front of you...i could not show out my tears....i could not show my happiness as well....
• in this kind of reason i could just say...that.....i could not act or pretend...it bring me really suffer...and full of pain...
• the searing of pain....it keep on burning...burn in me.....this...have may cause me...have the inner attack without reason....and it cause a high damage that may hard to be cure or heal..
• well....but it just see that i may not have the chance by watching you....
• seem u can find your own happiness...and i have to redeem myself...because of your happiness...
• what will people say? Sacrifice? actually it doesn't matter...is just the meaning of the person you love....but once they are happy...you will just feel happy for them...and...it just have no idea...
• and...it do...the jealousy exist in you heart...but what you need to do...is just pretend nothing happen and act like nothing....and once they asked? you'll just say you will fine.....
• because BIG BOY DON'T CRY....hahas...
• well....but you...tell you something...even i do lie...but i lie is just i do not want to hurt any single of your feeling...once you cry...i could not stand those feeling....i will feel sad....
• in other way...my shoulder my hand will always here for you...to wish u can lie on...so you do not feel lonely...and it other ways..just wish you can feel better....
• even every single stuff..it means nothing to you...but it just mean a lot to me.....
• slowly we recall back everything we have done before...is really a sweet memory....and the word...like always make us just feel happy....i will say.....i only...will be with you...the everytime you smile...you laugh...you happy....i will just stand beside to smile with you =)
• but....once you are tired...you sad...once you cry....my heart is like a sting...into me...make me feel hurt..and pain......
• i wanna cry it out....but i just don't have tear inside my body....
• so...let it be..people...let it be...is just depend on fate now...will just back to me....will just stop hurting me...will just be back to normal...or will just make me something special...
• this kind of question i may not answered properly..is totally "?" question mark on it....the answeer....not im the one who decide...is only you....
• only you my love...only you......
• well.....i wonder...what will happen...on the following day...
• once i didnt saw..you.I reli just miss...you...i wonder i could just hold your hand...
• and give you a kiss through the hand...into your nerve and...your heart....is just the matter you accept me or not...
• every moment you just in front of me...i feel the cutest and you are the most funny person.....
• even you do hurt my feeling...and make me angry for the purpose for you happiness...i am really angry but...i just do not have the heart to scold or say anything back to you....i will just let you do anything on me...as long you feel happy...but once i saw you with another...
• my heart is just as bad as an evil person....it all because of jealousy....
• is all the same reason.....
• i will hug you....if u wan me too...remember..i'm always be there for you.....what you want me to do...i'll just sacrifice for you..including my life..no matter how hard the thing have to be done...i just have to do it for you...
• i may not be the best person for you...but i will just try my best and keep on for you....
• remember....i will...just look at you and protect you...to prevent you from getting hurt by anyone....love you...

i miss you..what abt you? it just may not forever...but at least now u care me...it just well enough...and...i love you forever..

Time past by..

• time is always past....cant the time like turn backward...
• i really miss wat was happpening last time...
• cant it be.....and....everything will be end...
• after this year....i might have leave all my friend...and the one....
• even more...im goin to oversea...to start a new life..with all of weird feeling and be surrounded by strangers...
• so...is just wish to have gain happiness now...more better than later on.....
• i wish all wat i wan..will came back to me..and dont....leave me...
• so..this few days...have weird....sad,suffer,happy,excited,worried every kind of feeling just came out from no where...
• i have no idea...
• and i have did something that i havent done in my whole life....i n 17 years...and is my first time...indeed i have failed...but i will be fine...and i worried abt the other..
• anyway can u please be normal?...dont try to avoid....u make me uncomfortable..and sad....
• everything is true on the bottom of my heart....
• and you guys..know what happen on me...and why still want to show all those stuff?
• are u guys nutz? u guys r idiot! can u pls stop it....
• you making me suffer...why..why??? wan to treat me like dis!....
• i cant handle u guys anymore.....can u pls...care me more....i might need you....i maybe really need u...
• so....i dunno what to do....the only word...u maybe can found someone better than me this weird people with full of stupidity....well no comment....

Sushi?? erm..YUCK!

• lolz HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAREEZ
• well today after school Me,Wei Yean and Lian Yan hav plan on a Sushi King today....cause of having promotion....
• at first is quite fun and excited.....so quite cool.....so we have waited for 1 hours.....
• well both of them ate ice-cream.....and we Q-up and just wait cause i don't like the ice-cream is sticky XP
• and so...till our turns...we get in and get the Sushi!!! both of them grab like don't have to pay it......LOL....and we eat a lot....
• and ahem ahem ahem....some lady just touch...ahem ahem..yea....
• and some girl!! just gave me a yucky fish...after i ate those...i feel like vomit.....seriously =.=;.....Beh Tahan!....ewwwww...it just make me wont go for Sushi King for like 1 month =.=
• so......go on while we're waiting for the place....we Meet Michelle...she have some shopping in Leisure Mall
• so...till we in eat half way...that girl....still waiting on the bus stop....so den...i asked her to come over and wait for me...so i fetch her back....is really dangerous to let a girl....alone over there...so den....before we left....we wanna try to break record but...too bad....we just can fit in more.....VERY VERY FULL!
• phew...so and is so muc cheaper...compare to last time we ate.....well is PROMOTION...
• ngek.....after that me just separated with lian yan and wei yean...cause they went for tuition and i'll accompany Michelle cause i have to fetch her back....Lucky her...if not she need to wait there alone...if i didnt go Sushi King.....so...yea that's all =D.....and pls...don't remind me the fish i ate just now...(vomit)

Sushi