Yep Form 5 Last night gathering =D

Form 5 gathering!!! ^^ have fun ma? wish so lo....hehe hope everyone enjoy it =) not too cheap not too expensive ngam ngam hor hor? hehe will miss you guys leh!!!! so fast over.....hehe lucky some of us just stay near....abuden neh....Siok Jin going back to Johor Bahru and come back after CNY haih...sob..sob....let's make 2nd gathering XP lol...."hehe don't forget each other...."

Feel the place!!


Ayer...Ah yean become my background haha wek why ur eye open so big ==

Ahh Suk Khee

Siok Jin & me...omg teacher!!!morning ^^

Sok yan & Me....

Yee lai, Dai lai, Sam Lai and 4th Lai~~ lolz

Li Ling"waa so gentle" & me....hehe...

BROTHERS!!!

lol si lan yan take until like dis lolz

Me & Lian Yan(brothers!!)

Li Ling and me =D

Me and Kj (brothers!!)

ME and ah mong kor =)

• hehe...dis form 5 gathering is been organize before SPM....well is been in charge by MeiMei and me geh
• but den...ah meimei haih "put aeroplane" so make me have to organize everyone...
• been wasting so many credit and time...and tired to organize neh....
• so i have decided to make this event on Cititel
• well but wat u have giv out...you been paid back!!! coz to me...dis gathering really fun =D
• the reason i do it on Friday is because of Siok she is going back on Saturday T.T
• well then...wish everyone could enjoy...
• hope the food is nice also lo XP haha.....
• wei today i got your pic wo....why so guai wan let me take? lolz haha
• so wat u actually thinking ne...hmm dunno u or me 1st leh.."no one understand" XP
• hehe WOOHOO form 5 gathering is very fun ^^ to saw back everyone...but fun time is really fast over T.T after that....just have to call it a day...well
• just stay to keep in touch ba....si bo ah mong kor?
• hehe SWEET MEMORY

Finish exam..Feeling is Back

• i will remember the way u turn back and looked at me.....and blink with the gun symbol "bang"....and i see you with smile..and looked you walk out the hall...i wont forget how u walk out....
• i will remember your smile...i will be missing you....
• i will remember the day we in the school.....
• i hope it will be forever.....but is just didnt last long...
• i will be crying and sad for it..
• but it will always stay a sweet memory in my mind
• last one and message for u....i love you...and miss you...

You may just not know...

• why...cant you just treat me like a normal person...im sick of it....
• im tired...the feeling is enough...
• once i can let it go...
• can u just treat me a bit nicer....i dunno what to say....
• every of your action will remind me....
• and every of your words....especially those is hurting
• i being so uncomfortable...and those hurt feeling..it just cant be describe....
• i dunno what say......tired of the game....

by this piano play...from FF9(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMa-Z4-RqIU)

it bring some memories,sadness and happiness

I feel weird..confuse with what i do...

• i dunno what kind of feeling is this...i may not give you a proper answer....but could you just make me happy....for this past few week...i being stupid and just write all about my stupid feeling....it just becaming very irritating,.....
• I wonder....what did you think of me..I just felt so dumb.....is just if you didnt care about me....i will feel sad
• even if you are using me....i dunno...i will be fine..and kinda happy cause you will think of me...when you use me...(i dunno you are using me or not..)
• but...after that...i also just feel sad..cause you just use me...for the purpose your happiness.....
• and this make me feel kinda painful...and heart broken....
• to say the true...i may not just answer you properly...and i don't dare to decline....
• Decline..i will feel painful after you ask me why....are you ok?why you want to decline....
• Accept...i look at you...i just being hard and uncomfortable and being sad...
• i have no idea what i can do...i have no choice...
• please....god...can you give me a hint...and just help me..or make me change....i don't want to continue like this....just no....please

hope everything just can change......

• I just wanna be with you

Melody bring me and flow me away....

• i dunno what am i suppose to do....
• A Melody could just calm me down....a music can bring me to any kind of emotion
• so i have no idea.....what kind of thinking i should be...hey..u being so caring to me..since i talk to you....it make feel so comfortable....
• but when you didnt talk to me...i just felt cold....and feel sad.....
• well....i hope my voice can become a melody to you..
• to comfort you...
• to make you happy
• to stay with you
• be in your mind...forever....
• well now....
• melody....the voice of yours...have confuse me,....have make me...crazy......
• so.....you have bring me away...and be a person which is not myself anymore....
• you change me everything.....you make me feel diference and make me feel something special and i can feel the feeling of being down...compare to last time.......
• i wish this thing make me be much more happier...i dont want to be down..

A girl : Coddy a!! wake up la.
pls laa. like dat only also wa
dun lanlanyeh sinn no mood.
CONTROL URSELF laa. always wan me call you wake up...when you will wont get scolded from me...

• haha...thx...for always awaken me....

Piano Tune

• A Piano...could just bring you to somewhere...for some girl...they felt kinda romantic when a guy just played it for them....and mostly...all girls they just love to play piano...
• the does not love the way how people play...but the love the sound of the instrument..it just attract them....
• and so today....with all about music....and mostly about piano...
• this instrument bring me all kind of memory...and i dunno is actually a good..thing...
• Once the song is play...let me flash back my memory....
• So....den....i try to give him some space....and so....i'll out from my house.....in this moment.....i when to my fav place....where i cry,sad,happy i would like to that place.....which nearby my house area.....what i can tell the hint "where a lot of people love to go there when is nothing to do and it's windy....."
• so.....i bring my mum photo with me....cause i love to have my mum beside me...
• so....everything wish just over soon....as my friend said...please do overcome it and don't let people control you....

There's No Place Like Us

• i have no idea....the only place could not get away....is only my room...
• my room is my world....
• there is a place full of memory.....
• there place i cried..
• the place i laugh
• the place i studied
• the place i eat.....
• the place i watch movie....
• the place i listen to music...
• the place i meet all my friend
• the place i sleep....

and

• the place where a lot of people have couple up...so far it's about 4 couple up in my room
• but how come i don't have?
• i just no idea......the moment i see you....my heart have broken...for being so sweet and romantic.....
• i have no idea....as in speechless...mum...i need you...to let me stay strong....well if you are here....i can stay calm and wont feel lonely.....mum i miss you..=)
• i will recognize all my distance....and the hope and wishes will just come true with no idea....
• can i have some rewards...
• why did u betray me?why...?why...?....i cant believe you treat me like that....i will remember.....
• as long you doesn't betray me is enough.....plss dont....if she betray me...is fine...but you...please don't......I miss You....the moment of our days....(non-betrayer)

"NO MUSIC NO LIFE"

• haih....hey...how are you feeling today?
• i'm kinda worried once i see you like that....please...you....are always in me...even know i forget you...but once i see those feeling just back into me..haha...totally no idea...
• but i see you can be so happy..of course i will be happy for u....and hey remember dont force and make yourself being so struggling and suffering...Gambateh...
• well....after i have a chat with my TWINS haha.....both of us plan to study togetther to get the cert and of course do not least out is....we are planning to learn some basic instrument wand to open a band....haha....
• in this band...we are planning to make a charity band which is....everyweek go to orphanage to play some music for them..as in we have learn something

" NO MUSIC NO LIFE "

• haha...gogo all of us....a plenty of fun stuff is awaiting us...to be done and our ambition and wishes is waiting for us to touch and catch them...so it will dream come true.....
• so what we are waiting now?...just keep on study and till after SPM we have all the fun...haha gogo....
• both of us are like so excited and cant wait for the exam faster over ...
• Go Go Music =)

Thx for the Support..(moral value XP)

• haha...thank for evryone who have give me a spirit of energy to let me stand up...
• now...First of all, the first thing i would not ever give something like bring me...down..
• remember people the moment you just got hurt remember to just stay calm...do not come and over take those action yo....and everything will just be overcome...i am kinda sure...it do or will be paid back....in a good or proper way....
• well just remain the stay....
• to think about it or think back....we will know..the reason we are here..is just not for you....
• but in this reason...it doesn't meant i will not let you down......
• remember once you just come i will try to change you into a proper and good person...
• i may not comform..that i will make it and i'm a 100% good person but...i will try my best to be one...so let do it people..without any knowledge just learn to say sorry...

Missing A Part of Myself

• Once you have away...from me....i really just miss you....
• everytime...every moment i do every work....i just very miss you.....
• but why? I Could just said that...it without reason and is just with all of sudden the feeling just came....
• well....in the other way....your careness..your playfulness...your sweetness...your laughness....you sadness...your memory and worried...it just always be with me....but i just felt that...i have to share with the others....
• cant it always be with me?....can i just be selfish once.....can i? Pls? pretty pls?
• i really wish...just one day....you will be back with me...no matter how long.....
• i will just describe with one...word..."wait"....i will be waiting no matter how long..even the day i be a corpse...and been sealed...in a box....that will not be released...i will be just wait....with no reason....
• it may have no result...but in the use...i could just pretend nothing happen....
• in front of you...i could not show out my tears....i could not show my happiness as well....
• in this kind of reason i could just say...that.....i could not act or pretend...it bring me really suffer...and full of pain...
• the searing of pain....it keep on burning...burn in me.....this...have may cause me...have the inner attack without reason....and it cause a high damage that may hard to be cure or heal..
• well....but it just see that i may not have the chance by watching you....
• seem u can find your own happiness...and i have to redeem myself...because of your happiness...
• what will people say? Sacrifice? actually it doesn't matter...is just the meaning of the person you love....but once they are happy...you will just feel happy for them...and...it just have no idea...
• and...it do...the jealousy exist in you heart...but what you need to do...is just pretend nothing happen and act like nothing....and once they asked? you'll just say you will fine.....
• because BIG BOY DON'T CRY....hahas...
• well....but you...tell you something...even i do lie...but i lie is just i do not want to hurt any single of your feeling...once you cry...i could not stand those feeling....i will feel sad....
• in other way...my shoulder my hand will always here for you...to wish u can lie on...so you do not feel lonely...and it other ways..just wish you can feel better....
• even every single stuff..it means nothing to you...but it just mean a lot to me.....
• slowly we recall back everything we have done before...is really a sweet memory....and the word...like always make us just feel happy....i will say.....i only...will be with you...the everytime you smile...you laugh...you happy....i will just stand beside to smile with you =)
• but....once you are tired...you sad...once you cry....my heart is like a sting...into me...make me feel hurt..and pain......
• i wanna cry it out....but i just don't have tear inside my body....
• so...let it be..people...let it be...is just depend on fate now...will just back to me....will just stop hurting me...will just be back to normal...or will just make me something special...
• this kind of question i may not answered properly..is totally "?" question mark on it....the answeer....not im the one who decide...is only you....
• only you my love...only you......
• well.....i wonder...what will happen...on the following day...
• once i didnt saw..you.I reli just miss...you...i wonder i could just hold your hand...
• and give you a kiss through the hand...into your nerve and...your heart....is just the matter you accept me or not...
• every moment you just in front of me...i feel the cutest and you are the most funny person.....
• even you do hurt my feeling...and make me angry for the purpose for you happiness...i am really angry but...i just do not have the heart to scold or say anything back to you....i will just let you do anything on me...as long you feel happy...but once i saw you with another...
• my heart is just as bad as an evil person....it all because of jealousy....
• is all the same reason.....
• i will hug you....if u wan me too...remember..i'm always be there for you.....what you want me to do...i'll just sacrifice for you..including my life..no matter how hard the thing have to be done...i just have to do it for you...
• i may not be the best person for you...but i will just try my best and keep on for you....
• remember....i will...just look at you and protect you...to prevent you from getting hurt by anyone....love you...

i miss you..what abt you? it just may not forever...but at least now u care me...it just well enough...and...i love you forever..

Time past by..

• time is always past....cant the time like turn backward...
• i really miss wat was happpening last time...
• cant it be.....and....everything will be end...
• after this year....i might have leave all my friend...and the one....
• even more...im goin to oversea...to start a new life..with all of weird feeling and be surrounded by strangers...
• so...is just wish to have gain happiness now...more better than later on.....
• i wish all wat i wan..will came back to me..and dont....leave me...
• so..this few days...have weird....sad,suffer,happy,excited,worried every kind of feeling just came out from no where...
• i have no idea...
• and i have did something that i havent done in my whole life....i n 17 years...and is my first time...indeed i have failed...but i will be fine...and i worried abt the other..
• anyway can u please be normal?...dont try to avoid....u make me uncomfortable..and sad....
• everything is true on the bottom of my heart....
• and you guys..know what happen on me...and why still want to show all those stuff?
• are u guys nutz? u guys r idiot! can u pls stop it....
• you making me suffer...why..why??? wan to treat me like dis!....
• i cant handle u guys anymore.....can u pls...care me more....i might need you....i maybe really need u...
• so....i dunno what to do....the only word...u maybe can found someone better than me this weird people with full of stupidity....well no comment....

Sushi?? erm..YUCK!

• lolz HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAREEZ
• well today after school Me,Wei Yean and Lian Yan hav plan on a Sushi King today....cause of having promotion....
• at first is quite fun and excited.....so quite cool.....so we have waited for 1 hours.....
• well both of them ate ice-cream.....and we Q-up and just wait cause i don't like the ice-cream is sticky XP
• and so...till our turns...we get in and get the Sushi!!! both of them grab like don't have to pay it......LOL....and we eat a lot....
• and ahem ahem ahem....some lady just touch...ahem ahem..yea....
• and some girl!! just gave me a yucky fish...after i ate those...i feel like vomit.....seriously =.=;.....Beh Tahan!....ewwwww...it just make me wont go for Sushi King for like 1 month =.=
• so......go on while we're waiting for the place....we Meet Michelle...she have some shopping in Leisure Mall
• so...till we in eat half way...that girl....still waiting on the bus stop....so den...i asked her to come over and wait for me...so i fetch her back....is really dangerous to let a girl....alone over there...so den....before we left....we wanna try to break record but...too bad....we just can fit in more.....VERY VERY FULL!
• phew...so and is so muc cheaper...compare to last time we ate.....well is PROMOTION...
• ngek.....after that me just separated with lian yan and wei yean...cause they went for tuition and i'll accompany Michelle cause i have to fetch her back....Lucky her...if not she need to wait there alone...if i didnt go Sushi King.....so...yea that's all =D.....and pls...don't remind me the fish i ate just now...(vomit)

Sushi

leave it away

• hmmm wow kinda boring today....but slowly...is hard to hold a friendship till forever.....
• in other i just dream but dream just doesnt come true...
• haha

well cause of someone? hmm wow...so special....just got to b replace me this old steel

the image above...hmm guest what is just those light make my spec so it look watery XP...

coz is boring...

well the night...and the day time....thanks to...Sokyan ,Weiyean and KY!!! haha..to accompany me.....hehe thanks to you girls...seriously i will feel so lonely ig not u guys...anyway

• slowly i just need to move out from the game is just bored to continue with..and it doesn't give me any benefit...
• and i will remember what u said...forever....well hope u will think of me..sometimes..and don't got betray like...
• if you have someone bully you or hurt you especially the person..tell me...i go kill the feller...
• Ka Phew......the night is very beautiful but tonight i have to see it alone....well not really bad at all..haha....let's what i can tell for tomolo than...

BEFORE THAT....
RYAN LEONG! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ^^ 18 YEARS OLD DY...wish ya all the best and goodluck ^^

Mad Test

• phew today have 4 paper in 1 shot~.....but than the most crazy wan is economy paper 2 is do reeally make me very mad!.....argh....i pass up the paper just remember the point ==.......damm...and is not enough time...
• well than.....he forget me de la....a replacement is just a replacement....haih...sad....
• tonight have dinner with sister.....yer...i wan go Sakae....but than they wan go "Dai Thong"....haih..well ying cao.......
• after that everything just go so madly and exhausted after today test....and tomolo is last two paper which is moral and BM2....well the komsas and peribahasa make me lazy to think about it....
• so and goes with the moral nilai..need to memorize the definition ==..haih...
• argh....yu yee ask me to don't so much...and put it aside first and concentrate on my exam...but...is really hard...well i try my best thanks to u....

now now...go STUDY!

Weird Feeling

• 
  I didnt on for long time.....phew.....
• well today and i may just say it now....since her exist i really feel the distance between our relation...i dunno is it my problem? well just maybe yea....anyway i'm only a replacement.....just in the time he just got someone else than i'll be replace....
• and the other stuff is...how come i have the feeling of getting betray...i have the feeling of the trust...it just lost with sudden...i dunno why....how come....i cant feel someone that i really can trust on......my stuff just spread it out easily.....what is this?
• and really this kind of feeling is the first time....i feel like.....i will be betray...but i dunno what is it.....i just feel the feeling just expose out.....the feeling just go away....i just go....i can feel it floating away....and is very painful......the pain just cannot be describe.....actually as what all people always said i think too much...maybe yea...
• but if he just do what i did..which is promise that i do not lie to him...isnt that i have the trust on u....and he even said before that...only me the one who cant lie him but doesnt mean that he cant lie me....
• well i just think POSITIVELY than can ady........CODDY WONG don't think too much la...it do this is important but....ur study and academic just come first...GOGOGO!

Trying to do my best

• I just about Jealousy....about friendship things....dude cheer up yo!(me)
• today...during assembly....join our gang..but...make him so bored....i trying my best...but i just don't have the courage...
• but in account class we 2 have a lot of silly jokes that's make both of us laugh..well..just go on...and continue our lesson...today Siok Jin was being so friendly! b'coz here gang was not here =.="
• over here i say some hint's to my buddy but so far Siok Jin got my point of view...and he was still blur =.="
• so go to the end of class which is FOOTBALL! here they really make me run today.....and i afraid of the BALL.......
• well it really make me exhausted.... that's is tiring....
• so i went back home and sleep till 7...i went for dinner...
• den i promise wei yean to called her...but since she is not in...I'll call her later den...and Kj he called me to ask HOMEWORK!...wow...he really improving...hehe all the best dude
• here debbie and CP 3 of us have a chat in MSN....poor biebie no internet line =.=" sad feller
• just wait till the end...
• during this....i was thinking should I really celebrate my birthday..I'm still thinking and just worried...if combine....I worried he don't like...if didnt combine..i afraid no one will come...as i have asked...if both party in the same time...which one will you go....most all answer the other side...not mostly i all of them..so....to me..i dunno about you guys...but i think my party just doesn't important who i am? only a watak sampingan...k?.......man i duno should feel sad or happy about this....well think positively...if i just didnt celebrate...this will make all my friend more happy =D
• In that case...stay happy....buddy and my friend...if you guys just happy...i will be just fine.....my birthday could just ignore it...haha...i told you guys before

in my mind friendship always come first.....

• well hope the party will be super fun...and...i might cant attend...just maybe...haha.......hope everything go soon...just in case if i cant attend...hope everyone really have fun...^^ all the best yo....

Buddy Day

• today i was thinking to make him happy but i think i have failed..hehe...during break i was thinking going down to take our break with wei yean and him...but...he want to accompany his another buddy more than me..haha....
• well everything just go normal...even know i keep on make silly and crazy jokes...which is not really funny =.=" but i have tried...he just getting...moody and emo...so i was worried haha....tonight he will b quite busy cause he will do something O.o hmm wondering will he called me after or before that?...haha....well...i ate with wei yean and even in lunch =D
• well the the school end...me and my buddy walk back...but is really obvious he prefer his another buddy than me..well maybe i just think too much...haha...anyway he told me something...which is....during the Birthday if there is 2 present he and me gonna have one...if there is only one i gonna take it..but arent that silly..i say that...how can this be...anyway is our birthday....it's depend on the person who they want to give...if they doesn't want to give...well forget it than...is fine with me....haha dude you just don't think so much ba...remember smile always.....
• hmm wondering what should i do...to make him more happier and better....so far i cant even make him a smile....haha.....
• Wow...with my sis go have our food just now...very full....
• after that hey wei yean sing in meetoto wei! i told u de la! ur voice really not bad ^^ wish to hear some more new song's from you..haha
• and den..Kheng sing..LoLz i really i dunno i should laugh or keep quiet haha,...
• after that i met sok yan..haha i just met everyone...after everything is over...
• i get a new song from kheng which is
  "All or Nothing"
• over here...i feel a lot of thing....i dunno....compare me...to him and the game...what do he actually think...actually he today did ask me something which...is....if me want to choose someone..who would i choose and with some condition on it but i didnt really heard it properly......
• over here....i just feel very depressed and i hope something will happen...to make me happy...the only thing warm me up...for now....is the song's...i feel so soft..but my heart still hurt....i wish this feeling will over soon and have a happy moment....

I miss you...(LOVE)

• today in the school im totally rushing from 8 karangan to 30 karangan....phew at last i made it...lucky me.....
• seriously my hand are pain...today in the early morning...me and wei yean talk about meetoto...just suddenly saying me for the game...
• both of us just feel very weird......
• after today mostly the whole we didnt really learn anything cause mostly the whole day is about copy karangan...man...seriously wasting my TIME!.
• and....at first I am thinking going to break...but...well he asked me to helped him to bring his stuff up to the class cause he though that i didnt go for break..oh well...i just go for lunch den...
• just go on....i dunno WTF is my problem...i just very moody...in my heart i miss someone....i just very miss.......
• den..during lunch... didnt went down...so i just go with Wei Yean to have our breakfast in lunch..
• while we are eating debbie,weiyean,CP and me sit on 1 table all of us chat happily and funny thank to them....to make me happy...hehe....it do have a lot of fun...well after that everything back into normal....i just keep quiet in the class and study...but my buddy every1 is chatting and play games.....
• so go to Sejarah...the first time..i really listen and study about it....
• even during this lesson...in my heart...i really miss someone.....i really miss....this feeling just cant go away from me...why would u appear? what did you want from me?.....can you at least give me an answer....you know...i miss you..my heart...just very pain.....did u know how's the feeling is?....pain.....
• and so sorry for him...cant accompany him...and he even tried to make me happy and played with me...sorry dude...
• and today the first time i walk alone...back without waiting my buddy....i just walk...but my buddy just come by me...haha...thanks for the companion...

after just go study group...

• normal...but less talk even in tuition......and go i have dinner with my sister...me and niece and nephew...keep on talk about joke...but me and my sister suddenly we talk about future...LoL.....
• in all of this one song is always exist is " A Whole New World"
• till i came back...i realize about my homework that i havent done....
• but i have no mood to continue cause i still missing.....i wish you could call or...talk to me....

- every word you gave me is a power..

- every voice you voice out on me is a miss...

-every moment you look at me...i will care for you

-every moment your tear droped out...i will be there for you and wipe it out...

-every moment you have fun...i just will be happy for you and sit aside alone.

-every moment you laugh i will smile at you..

- every moment you pain or sick...i will ask you and helped you..

-everytime you desperate...i will try my level best to help you..

-everytime you busy..i will be very understanding...

-everytime you help me..i felt very thankful

-everytime you look into my eyes...i feel shy and happy

-everytime you hold my hand...i just feel to hug you tightly..

-everytime you are sick....i will try my best to take care you to comfort you

-everytime i your smell...make me in love...

-everytime i feel you are just around me...

-everytime i feel i just need you...

-everytime i just cant let you go....

-everytime i sick i just want you to care more about me...

-every single second and minute i will missing and just and only love you..

• may this only is a dream..haha...
• well after that everything goes as usual me and wei yean have night chat haha...

Yesterday and Today In 1

Yesterday

• haha he get well le...i mean he has back to normal...is a good news den....
• everything go normal...he just act funny....
• feel relieve and glad
• during lunch....1st time...1 whole gang sit togetther ^^ which is debbie,chinpang,weiyean,liling,siok jin,ailin,huiki,chinlong,sokyan and me...
• over here...debbie asked chin pang...who is all his wife.....3rd is she...the 4th he point at me...
• debbie eat half way and splash everything out from her mouth...LoLz.....
• is a funny day...

After School

....in school very happy but.. i doesnt aspect this group member..haih...

• i having study group and this time im the most early person O.o
• well in the study i was aspecting something to study...but at last...we just copy some notes...and both of them use me as a object to let them quarrel...they really giving me a hard job...to turn all the topic..the keep on say some words...to hurt each other by using me...arent they thing about my feeling? but i have to act normal justto calm the situation....
• but seriously really wanna scold them up...after that...they suddenly put my buddy name in....my voice just a bit loud....but lucky I didnt say some harsh words.....and is just lucky i can control my emotion....if not....i rather quit from the study group......got i feel like slapping them....but well actually to stand on their side and think...is actually their feeling will be like that....so...after that me and yu yee walk back to my house...we have a small chat....i told her about something which one of our member....in study group....
• I really don't like people mention anythin or something bad about my friend and my family....this i very serious if i know it...mayb you could just not talk to me ever if I in bad mood that day...and cant two of u just calm down...and dont quarrel anymore in this thing u guys keep on say i will affect the study....but actually u guys are the one who affect the group.......
• so...till tuition...and goes till the next day...
• at night Xin Ying find me..haha....both of have chat something very silly =.="
• well and i slept very early i sleep at 11pm!...lolz....but 1am i woke up...cause my TEETH very pain.....pain till WALAO!! really pain...

Today

• well...today my mum and my whole family have went to Ipoh...left me alone in the house...is just because i was aspecting having study group on afternoon...but Michelle just told me on 3,30....what did she aspecting me.....how can i out from my house when there is no one.....here i would like to mention that plss do care about people feeling.....
• so.....everything just go so BORING!
• me alone in the house do nothing....so i continue my BM homework which is the 30 Contoh Karangan.......
• and is also because Wei Yean modem have prob on the afternoon till night..phew so much better......wei yean can on le....and in Meetoto...Debbie!!! she is in....her guessing....really.....haih.. =x
• well den and tml in the early morning Seet Ye and Yu Yee have to come my house tomolo for the study group...hope everything will go fine..den..haha

well now in my heart very miss someone...hope you sms or give me a call....

before go to bed...

Thanks to you girls..

• today everything just be very happy before go school..but kinda worried my buddy...cause he being so sad last night...
• so during the morning assembly....all the monitor got scolded by some principal...for jus all of sudden...
• after that...i just go back to class...
• every period of my class today.....i keep look at my buddy face...he just look so obvious to me...that his sadness....but the others said he is just tired..yea he do tired...but as a close friend i dunno..i just know that he just really sad.....
• in here..im just getting emo...is just because i dunno why...is just a feeling that...he sad...and i just feel sad for him....this i just me...over here i just felt that me is so dumb...because that im not suppose to be emo and im suppose to just make him happy....and i already set my mind that...i must make him laugh...just i dunno y i get control and been betray by my feeling which i just cant come across it....
• so...everything just go.....and till we having economics....i dunno y i just do it the paper so stress and emotional is just because i got distracted the attention by my friend sadness.....i was like keep on hitting my head while doing the test...and some of the question im just no suppose to wrong but is just i didnt read some of the sentences and word..so i hav done a big mistake.....

over here you guys just can say that im stupid....because of someone sadness but i become more sad.....well i dunno about you guys....but.....to me...when i see my friend sad....i just cant let them like that...especially when u just cant do anything or even give them advise......they just wont listen.....just feel kinda useless....

• well just go after lunch is quite lucky he wanted to go for his lunch...if not he just wont ate anything.....and then we have Malay Class here..our teacher didnt came to our class....we just continue to copy the 30's Sample Essay......well he just so exhausted....and he got soo...emotional...and sad and very tired....as i keep on sit beside him...i know him just too well...the first time he slept....he wont move his hand but this time he did....is just...something told me he just cant put down or let go his big bag...and to me is just obvious enough....
• so till it times up....3.30...both of us walk back to the guard house togetther.....he didnt talk to me...a single word..till nearly reach the destination..i say that "eh today u didnt hit me....i reli not get used with it..haha.....so then he just smile a while.."
• here den..i just a little bit relieve....
• after that....when i say "bye" he dun even have the mood to say it out...and he just wave me......he just making feel worried and sad....what i can do is just hope he is just fine...
• well i when back and reached my house...my mum asked me to eat...but i just dont have the moody to take the food....my mum feel sad about it...so i say i just fine...den i go have nap and overslept till forget about study group...when i was awake....i saw wei yean had find me...over here..i get so emo..and thx to her to awake me XP so that im not suppose to be so dumb just be smart yo..haha.....
• after that.....till 7,15pm i just cant wait to talk to Yu Yee so...i just go to Michelle house and find her......when i just reached there.....both of them just asked me to sit down and say it out my problem.....so.....i just tell them everything....which what happen in the school...and i just cry in front of them....what they did....they just give me advise...don't think to much...and just calm down....and they just worried about me...and they just listen about all my rubbish...Lastly,...they adivse me...and Yu yee her parents asked her to went back..but she say give her another hour....to accompany me..haha....after they just make me laugh and give me a lot of opinion how and what should i do...to handle the situation.They just awake me....and correct my mistake.....and Lastly before we dismiss....they just make me laugh.......thanks to them to make my mood to be back normal....over here....i have mention something...that i wish someone could told him...that actually what i have done...not that i want to get anything what i want is only a true friendship...
• After That, Yu Yee fetched me home...and she will sms me....a msg...which is funny..to my buddy....well den ....i reached home...
• and wei yean said she accompany me the whole night...haha so happy to hear that....after that she introduce me a game..which people go on stage and sing....haha....is fun and funny

THX TO ALL OF THEM FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE AND MAKE ME HAPPY.

- hope u will be fine....and be happy always..i will support and cheer for u as your best buddy! -

Thx for the support

• in the early morning...i have a big quarrel with my family...
• so today in the school....it happen which i had cried...quite embarased anyway....
• but thx for all my friend support and sorry....difitnah that he the one who make me sad...haha...thx to u buddy...
• so...today we played football...me kinda sux in it....i let in 5 goal...and 1 of it just give me a shoot..OUCH..
• so i when back...before that i wake up at 8,30 and called my friend to apologize...hehe...i slept till 9.....phew....prove that im so TIRED...
• well today my sis gonna share my bed....means she gonna sleep with me tonight....wow....wondering...about the bed...*my bad*
• well everything goes just fine...
• so far nothing really special...

I'm Glad that all people beside me are happy(emo blog)

• I forget to blog for pass 2 days....well i would say yesterday night...is something cant b aspected....so i was like quite emotional today.....
• well so...till today...the first time ever i sleep for 3 hours! in the school...phew....
• and today in the school we got....our SPM time table...awww man everyone in the class have come out a sound like ish.......and some of them all totally tension but me and some of us....still fine....
• after school i reached home....i ate and have a little bit rest.....
• while im sleeping...with all of sudden..im so tension and cant sleep well....i was like keep think about....the SPM time table...and something else.....
• so after that at 7...i awake i ran down....and i chat with Aunty Sau....i was like omg...left 108 DAYS! to spm.....and yu yee said i try to make you more scare is actually only 10weeks more.....so...while im talking to Aunty Sau...i was like keep on shout!!! for the tension inside me...so I decided to called Pn,Jalaja to be my counselor...she being so worried for me as well....and she said she feel so sorry cause of cant take care....but well she so silly......she have her future to go le...as a best friend...we can understand =D no worries....and she did help me relieve a lot.....and she really care about me....anyway sorry to make you so worried....i will try my best and would not make you dissapointed...hope we will see each other soon...
• after Pn,Jalaja called
• my buddy called....me....and i was like keep on telling him what happen the past just now....and than he was like seem that I have more stuff to talk about than he do..LOLz....well after he mention his problem i felt kinda useless cause cant help him really much....hehe anyway thanks to calm me down....you are my best buddy!
• and hope you will be fine....
• those tension about me and SPM was making me and my study group member really worried wish us will be fine and can finish our topic as soon as possible....
• so after at 10,30pm i have a chat with yu yee...hehe....so we have chat....
• STRAIGHT A'S PEOPLE!
• Keep it up and best of luck people...
• with all of suddent a lot of people find me..haha....in msn...first time...hehe...you guys are funny...lucky to have you guys have friend....

I Made a New Friend

• today on 2pm i went for study group.....only me and yu yee...seet yet come later....me and yu yee keep on talk something very funny which about people character and something very funny about it..!!
• after that seet ye have came so we start our study group....
• so over here...they need to do add math project...so over here i met a new friend his name is Chen Hong..lolz...
• Yu Yee and me found out something....shhh is only our secret haha...after that go have dinner with my family...
• and my mum had to went back to Pahang.. =(...
• so...i just go to bed..in the early midnight....my niece play the violin..omg...that's sux....
• and wei yean called me for no reason..and to let her release her tension...anyway she is just funny...haha....
• eh you dun get so HIGH fast wake up!! - seng a -

Bored,Funny and M day!

• today in the school..man damm boring....only me,Junhao,mong and elaine the one who present but elaine went for rehearsel so only 3 guys in the class
• well then...Ms,Deela her class is so funny and she know how to listen to MANDARIN!
• she asked us to sleep if we wan too.....
• after 2 more lesson go to break...M today is my best friend...well on the way to the canteen...he told me that he jealous and regret cause of didnt jump into the swimming pool...
• i asked WHY? he answer because he jealous wei yean take picture of the guys which show their muscle!.....and he show me his muscle....SWEAT"*seriously he is DAMM gay...*after that he go touch my shoulder he say guy on their shoulder must be big....so look very nice...lolz! and asked me to workout...well den.....and he keep on talk about those buku kitab....and some dynasty stuff

He also asked me and jun hao a question....which is if a water put in front of the statue what will you think?

-u answer for me...-

• after he don't to eat...cause all the food is carbohydrates....he tell me some science stuff...
• so so we went back to class as usual..and till perdagangan and moral period....
• jun hao felt that he quite annoying cause of keep on ask him math stuff...
• Lastly..before we went back.. jun hao start a topic which is who's the most handsome guys?
• he choose Takeshi Kaneshiro
• here come to comparison which is EDISON CHEN and DANIEL WU...
• M answered he said he prefer daniel wu cause he very man~~~after that...he keep scold Edison Chen of dropping people dignity...he say poor feller for those girl.....
• and here....
• some good information for one of my friend which jun hao love thos girl...hav a little bit of like those girl have those "chi jek(mandarin)" de girl type which is his defination is not that pretty and not ugly but have an aura..lolz
• i asked him then the whole form 5 who the pretiest...i aspecting... WY.....but he choose Shermin...lolz...he say if her face a little sharp den is nice...

-after class-

• i walk back to the park lot with liling....she drive today..hehe...she is just funny...

lol wat a funny day ....den is slept till night and me chat with Louise till like 2 hours....in the phone....

• after that...i call Kia Jie to talk something but at last let him "za dou" -laugh like hell after the phone call -
• after that...as usual chat with wei yean...

"sorry to say this...i felt that kinda G-day ever..lolz"

Games Make You Tired and Drown~

• today in the school everything goes quite fine...wait till 11am we are having a assembly...for our i-movie competition...
• i cant believe we lost and for the movie we got 50 marks....poor thing...well to me i think im kinda like responsible for..it...so kinda sad...
• after the event we have announce the result and we got 3rd for the overall..so next is the BIG SPLASH event.....here all the senior jump in for our LAST YEAR except some fo the girl....well is so fun...
• and in the big splash i learned a lesson which is...don't ever jump and stay beside the person who dont even know how to swim...they will juz pull you down....
• after that everythign goes normal...and we went back to our lesson....
• and till 3,30 feel like going back and don't go for football cause of stomache pain after drink so many pool water...
• did told me to just went back...but well i just need to keep my promise....well seriously im not a emo person when i got emo there will be a reason! and....i didnt lie....cant u just talk properly to me...your voice always like i lie for the purpose get your kesian....(Man that make me look gay...)
• To be honest friend does important...i dont..care what he think about me..but to me..my job is to maintain our relation with all my friend especially the buddy...
• after that just play....today football so boring..i dont even touch the ball once....
• so just when back home as usual and sleep till 8....and have chit chat with Aunty Sau...
• at last as usual chat with Wei Yean..=D

Sleepy!!

• Aunty Sau had came and fetch =D for this following 3days.....because my parent and my ss had went out for outstation..have to takes care of those kid...haih....oh well....in 1 BIG HOUSE hmmm...hope everything goes fine...

wow the first time i feel so sleepy..duing school time...today every of our lesson had shorten up and confuse with the time table...so messy.......

• and we having a Prize Giving ceremony today.....kinda suffer that have to squish into the sits......
• Liling she is very funny...she took her prize and she is just blur...haha.....she dunno wat to do hehe.....
• after that came back from school...and get into the d and sleep....
• so...so...i continue to do revision... -first time do own revision-...
• Coddy wong...*goi sing a?* lolz....
• and didnt chat with wei yean today,.....sorry......hehe....eh hope u will be fine...FASTER! AWAKE!

Normal Life Normal Day

• Today have nothing really special...well let me see....
• before break everything was totally normal....but..

- After Break -

• Everything just change....and there is a question come into my mind....why u guys think sex is important...and why u guys are so careless.......
• and so...i cried(stupid me)after break.....and get scolded.....say me always suddenly emo.....in here of 1 term....he and my friends should know...i will emo...and sad there will be a statement and reason.....i will not emo for no reason.....
• after everything just go normal...anyway thanks to made me smile back....
• during lunch wei yean ate chocolate...and share...she did offer me but i don't want....seriously and i make a mistake and calledthe chocolate name is TOSHIBA walao...so pai seh....haih...well everything is over le ba......nowadays everyone just study...and chong wei yean study...FUI YOH!
• after that everything goes just fine till night....

- Night -

• My Friend find me cause of her lover...haih...she should just be honest and brave le.....if not u making urself suffer...."sing lai ba....awake!!!"
• my cousin came my house....she told me everything...about her loe thing and so on...well now she have a dificulties....which wanna choose Boy A or Boy B...wondering...
• and den i told her about mine as well.....her answer is...i didnt fall in love...i just admire the person...hehe...well and i chat with my best friend....
• my advise to HER.....just chill ba....u can find a BETTER MAN.....

School Days!

• Today i go school is kinda weird that came school late...around 7,30.....so i am wondering is him ok..or maybe he just absent ba...but he came...he said he late cause of the class picture.....
• well is something very weird about him....which is he suddenly study *act like one of my goddy friend*.....well he juz keep on study
• and he didnt go for break and lunch.......haih just make his friend all worried...during lunch....we are not reli considered as quarrel but..i told him do not force himself to study if he cant and he shud take a rest when he is tired.....
• after that....he juz continue to study and after our last 2nd period sejarah...he just get better....

Phew lucky he didnt faint.....

• so....as usual i went back home
• before i go for study group i have quarrel with my sister....
• and then...in the study group we didnt continue our revision but we doing our BM tuition homework!
• in here Yu Yee and me keep on laugh about Michelle....she just very funny with her funny jokes~~

- In The Tuition -

• here i met Wendy...and i cant believe both of us go to the same orphanage that is taught previously...

- After Tuition -

• i reached home and i on9....and i saw Rachel.....i didnt met her for so long since primary...haha both of us just miss each other...well hope she is just fine...

- When You're lonely You Can Always Find Me -

• after that...my parents asked me to send DURIAN to michelle house..
• their whole family ate it and say nice about it....
• so i continue do my school work...and chat with wei yean in the meant time chat with michelle too..

....Daily Life......and go to bed after everything done....

Moody Day

• today in the early morning my head kinda headache....well as wat today i chat with chin pang he told me...and teach somethg abt drink and drunk...
• well after today wei yean had went to shop....and i alone in the house!....
• and so today michelle she went to c doctor so our study group hav cancel....
• and so so....cause of no one was accompany me....i was alone...i done nothig but just lie down on the bed....doin nothing and dreaming....but in the meant time....i miss someone.....i very very miss...someone......
• till at night till i go for dinner...with my mum..in the car....i wanna cry but the tears just cant come out...and i dunno why...i know i just very miss the person...i wish i could like ever hug the person......
• and so....i do my homework...while in the progress wei yean had came back from her shopping...she told me that the shopping is BORED!
• after we had a chat awhile.....and den....my uncle has come back...i really hate him the most!
• keep on disturbing me...and damm LC really like 1 slap giv him...
• after i juz continue my homewor....
• and snap! tomolo hav sejarah test...and i havent read....i wish i could wake up in the early morning.....and can do the revision in time....
• wish i can sleep well tonight...i wish i can dream that person and the dream can make me have a happy day tomorrow.....

Am i reli drunk?

• well today is we hav studied group in the early morning and play UNO on afternoon...
• after that, on the evening i go fetch kia jie and samantha.....well for huiki party
• but after that we go and find fui ee.....to find her yoyo(puppy)..LOl....
• after that in the party
• i drink too muc....and then i reli dunno that me reli drunk or not.....
• after i felt sry to Kia Jie and Lian Yan i tink i hav a bit rude and sry to Kia jie to send him bak late....
• after that....sry to Wei yean to make she drink
• after all....my sis send all of them bak.....well i'll wait till next day to know wat will happen den...
• hehe thx buddy to all of u...without u guys...i might b very bored...sleep well and sweets dreams ^^

Another Tired Day

• Phew...really tired...school 8~3.30
• After that study group 4,30 till 7
• and den tuition 7~10,30!!!!
• walao....man im goin to die ==
• well today kia jie is so tired...he was like fell asleep =.=" *everytime*
• and then....the language teacher....keep talk about OBESITY...
• ah man....in this case we hav built up a better relation among my friend
• in the study group.....we didnt really serious...for the 1st time..we keep on play WEI......
• so go on with our tuition....we all pakat in our test....and wu~~huu~~ all of us got A1 COOL..
• so all of them juz keep on disturb me =.=" man all girls and only 1 boy in the tuition need help here......
• oh well since none of my friend is online..so i decided to go to bed early...wishing for sweets dreams.....

Tired Day

• Wow i didnt touch football about two years...!!
• well and today i played football accompanied by Kia Jie,Lian Yan,Jeremy,Mong and Sufiz
• phew after school totally tired i slept till like 8...4get tat im having tuition at 7.....
• now i make a blog this i my FIRST day of blogging cause one of my friend ask me to blog again...
• Parasanth suddenly find me and talk shit........
• Now i'll bak to my normal life hav to do homework......left few more month to SPM did i reli well prepared.....no idea...juz hope everything is fine..